Blind

i have a feeling that my eyesight are not as good as before..
Perhaps this is due to aging factor..
there is so much i want to do and so much i feel its time not to be too fast..
its like on a racing track..where you drive a Ferrari car and you just go speeding fast and fast and fast..
i used to get angry faster..then as i getting older, i tried to control my temper..
i used to have a Sabahan best fren.. we always compare each other horoscope..She is a Scorpio and I am a Virgo.. we were at odds and always quarelling..
as times grew, we understand each other feelings so we just bear with each other..some disagreement we try to put it aside and put on a show..
its the same thing happening now to me in my office..having to deal with an office full of different characteristics colleaguess..
at times, i have to stay professional with them and to act high and mighty even deep down i am not that kind of person..
at times, i am just the mere follower and start to observe their behaviors..so that i can blend in something similar like them but keep my own characteristic too..
now i am learning to be a better communicator with people..or perhaps i just try to sweet talk and say all the nice nice things as that is the easiest conversation or just repeat after whatever they have said just to be sure that i am talking to them..
i told my mom that it was just like the "Blind leading the Blind.''..
i have the second chance to live so i just better make full use of it and be grateful instead of crying away at night in sorrow and hoping things will go back as usual which i know it will never happen..but i can pray and hope for more positive things to happen..
everywhere we go, we will face different kind of temptations and challenges and it is up to us how we gonna fight them..spiritually, mentally or physically..
people come and go in our life..for the past, let it be past..there is no such things as similar persons or soulmates..its all in your mind..
life is just like fairy tale when you want it to happen..
the truth is we are living in reality here on earth :)